Why am I so Cheap?

I ask myself that question quite a bit. 
I rarely treat myself to things. 
I remember being young and my mom would take us shopping a lot but would never buy anything for herself.  It was always stuff for me or my sister and I'm the same way.  I actually get more pleasure out of buying things for my kids and seeing them happy.

Of course I don't want my children to be "spoiled" and sometimes we have had several meltdowns in stores when I announce that just because we have to go somewhere does not necessarily mean that there will be treats bought.  That's a whole other story though...

I recently found a pair of ballet style TOMS.  You can see them here.  So pretty and I really like their philosophy.  But holy crap, 79 bucks?  That's craziness.  I don't think I've spent more than $40 on a pair of shoes since I got my first "real" job graduating college.  I just don't know if I can do it.

I have also agonized over a Smith and Hawken weaved wooden pumpkin in Target around October. I told my husband all about it and when I was finished he asks "so how much was it?"  I say "oh, 8 dollars"  and he just rolls his eyes.  I know, ridiculous.  Although I know that he can appreciate me being like this more often than not! 

I am very grateful that at the moment I can torture myself with these types of decisions instead of trying to decide whether I should pay the electric bill or by groceries like many people these days.

Who knows, I may just get them after all...